Long Time No Write…

It has been a very long time that I haven’t posted about the goings on in my life. I suppose, those of you who have me on your FaceBook might know, or maybe not. More than anything else, this blog is a place for me to rant once in a while, and sometimes I think it is a record of my life’s journey, albeit online.

Nevertheless. I think an update is long overdue. 🙂

So. Where to begin? Lets see…

Professional Life – yeah, that looks like the safe and nice way to begin, isn’t it? Well, its going good, ifI have to say so myself. They say any business takes a few years to get off the ground. And as such, it is true. It took me about 4-odd years to get my freelance business off the ground back home. And its lifebeen a couple of years since I came here. My real effort in terms of my business started a few months ago, and its been paying off quite well, thank you very much. The graph can only go upwards now, because there’s no downwards in this journey. Slow and steady. But yes, its getting there.

Personal Life – well, this is indeed a hit and miss scenario. (When was it any other way, huh?)

Well, I am trying to figure many things out. Some answers have come through to me via the Universe, and some, well, not yet. Nevertheless, Existence has been kind enough with me. And for that I am grateful.

There was a weird time in the past few months when all and sundry were after my life to get married. Of course, I resisted. I even checked out Shaadi dot com, but I didn’t make an account. The way I see it, me and marriage are not a marriage made in heaven! LOL

Trust me, you had to be there – random strangers advising me to get married! The voice in my head is sometimes so very snarky and makes me laugh so much!

Just had a couple of interesting realizations a few days back. They aren’t easy. In fact, they’ve given me a bit of a depressed feeling. But here it is: I have problems with trust where making new friends is concerned, I have met and lost the one guy who in all probability was my soul mate and therefore have no hope of ever finding another soul mate again, and there are some other things that I can’t have which money can’t buy.

Yeah, I know, normally, I take these things with a smile on my face and live through the day. But today, I am feeling a bit down. Knowing my proclivities, I am damn sure, I will bounce back by the time this weekend’s done.

I know that there is a differing thought process between my head and heart – and my head is pretty much in a happy place, my heart, well, that isn’t. And so it will pass. Just like everything else in life.

Writing – yes – this is a completely different area of my life. Probably an area that supersedes it all. I mean, personal sh*t and professional stuff aside, writing is a totally different area of my life. These writingthings usually don’t have to touch it. Although in the past I have allowed it to. But not so anymore.

Building up all kinds of psychological and psychic defenses for each area of your life, after separating them in the first place takes a lot of effort. It is a lot of hard work. But I find that I have achieved it to some major degree.

Anyhow, I am writing again. Can you believe it? After a lull of over 5 or 6 years, I wrote a new short story a few months ago. And I could glimpse the same overwhelming feeling all over again. It is as if I am afraid to let myself go deep into that space.

I guess being practical for so long has rubbed off on me. So it has to happen that I need to build the protective walls around this area of my life – so that I can then freely let go. It is important that I have to do this. And I think this is a work in progress – something that’ll happen as I write along.

I have also realized something interesting: just like I read more than one book at a time (sometimes I am concurrently reading 3 books at a time), I need to write more than one book at a time. Really nuts! My brain apparently works on only two settings: On Steroids, or On A Break. There seems to be no middle ground or middle way for it. Ah well, I dealt with it and live with it.

So, I’ve started writing: 2 books. One is my fiction book, and one is my Tarot book. I know, both have been long overdue. And professionally, I am editing this manuscript for this writer who has written this brilliant novel. So there you have it – 3 books. And everything falls into place, right?

Reading – And am also reading 2 different book series too. One is the Game of Thrones series, and feed book coverthe other series had the first book called ‘Feed‘. I’ve finished the first book of both the series, and now on the second book for GOT and have downloaded the sample of Feed 2 in my iBooks to start in a bit. Plus, I read this book called ‘Winter Sea‘ in between, which I believe was a very well written book – something that’s quite rare these days. The author has woven the story so well, that the book could serve as a primer for writers like me who struggle with these things sometimes. Only sometimes. The struggle, I mean…  🙂

Tech Stuff – Yes, this is a also a very important part of my life. I am exploring Mac OS X Lion which to me is great so far. Love my iPad as well. Am always exploring GTD workflows. And I think I’ve found my groove with these things. And things are progressing fairly well, I think. Time management and discipline are the key – trust me.

TV – oh yes! After spending many years without a TV and having then stumbled upon American Television, I find myself scheduling a few series into my calendar. I use this site called Next-Episode battlestar galacticadot net to add series to my watch list, and then export every month’s calendar into my iCal so I get these reminders. Plus I have the TV Forecast widget on my dashboard, and the TV Forecast iPad app – so I get reminded no matter what I am doing, or where I might be.

Some interesting series I am watching these days include Suits, Necessary Roughness, White Collar and Alphas. Besides, I have also started Netflix and we even bought this new HD TV to go with it (its got a Netflix app and everything) – so I end up watching movies and old TV series on streaming. Its awesome. Among the ones I watched recently, Battlestar Galactica sure caught my eye! I mean, this series has got to be one of the best I’ve seen so far! Trust me. It weaves a good plot line and is full of these amazing characters – it just takes a hold. If ever there was a series that could singlehandedly become a competition to StarGate for me, then BSG is it. I know you all will call me a “Shol’va” (Goa’uld / Jaffa word for Traitor) for this, but hey, a girl likes what a girl likes.

After all, “All of this has happened before, and will happen again,” right?

So, what else is left now? If anything is, just drop me a line. I am in a good sharing mood right about now. LOL.

No Nudity in front of the Dog

20110423-023807.jpgMy younger sister, Tanuja has a really cute Labrador called Toby. In May sometime, she is planning to go visit India. She plans to leave Toby with us when she does. So today, as a trial run, they left him with us for the whole day – It will be Sunday afternoon when they’ll come by to pick him up and take him back home.

This way, everyone will know if Toby stays with us. Plus he will get it in his cute, lil Doggy head that he does stay here sometimes.

20110423-023517.jpgNow Toby is a sweetheart and a darling. My sister and I were the ones who’d gone by to the breeder’s place and picked him out from among all the other little puppies out there – and let me tell the fella was so tiny… but if you look at him now, he’s grown up … Makes you feel like a huge adult watching them grow, doesn’t it?

You know, if it weren’t for my mom’s allergies I would probably have had a zoo by now! Alas!

Well, now here’s the thing. I normally don’t have much of an issue with nudity – either on the watching or the doing end of it. Many of my close friends will attest to the fact. Now I must put in a disclaimer here that I don’t make it a habit to move around in my birthday suit, so no need to put up all the cameras … but I don’t have any issues with it either. I am kinda immune to the effects of nude bodies… just not built that way I guess.. It doesn’t make me awkward or anything…

20110423-023933.jpgAnyhow, so I was undressing to go for my shower. But then Toby walks in and stands there looking at me … and then right in the middle of taking off my shirt and tracks, I froze. For a second there, I was like, do I go nude in front of this … this … little child? Seriously, that is exactly what I think of him – he is like a little child… and somehow, I just couldn’t undress.

So off I went to the bathroom for my shower … with my clothes on. Naturally, I disrobed before I took my shower… but then I thought that this was the most weirdest thing ever… It like I want to PG-7 filter the stuff Toby can see!


Serious weirdness, right?


In other news, I was watching Inception the other day, and once again, I was blown over by the amazingly tight script, plot-line and characterization of the movie – this one is for the DVD-BluRay Combo Packs people!

So I leave you with an info graphic or two that I managed to download from the internet somewhere… these are the 2 that I absolutely liked for the way they depicted the whole scenario…



Oh and I am using the WordPress app on my iPad to write this.. and am using a really cute Bluetooth keyboard to write – its my experience that long term typing on this device using the on-screen keyboard is a sure-fire recipe for carpal tunnel or some weird wrist-finger pain disease… LOL
The Bluetooth Keyboard is the best thing I ever invested in – especially in the iPad accessory department… So lets hope this experiment is a success.

And dear, sweet Toby is lying by my feet, sweetly napping away as I write – its his way of waiting till I am done with my stuff, so I can go play with him again – Dogs need so much attention really!

Life With Mom Sure Is Funny

Life with mom sure is funny!

Every Friday (when the Season is on for the show), mom and I religiously make the sacred trek down to the basement to watch Merlin on SyFy.

Right after Merlin, nowadays they’ve started showing a series called Being Human. The series is about a vampire, a werewolf and a ghost living together in an apartment, trying to figure out their lives and their ‘conditions’, all the while trying to make sense of stuff. Admittedly, I haven’t watched much of the series, just a few clips here and there, so I don’t know much about the plot intricacies. That being said, whatever clips we’ve ended up watching, had a bunch of blood and gore in it.

Just before the series starts, we have a blurb that tells us that the ‘content is for mature audiences and that parental discretion is advised’.

Based on my mom’s reactions to such kind of shows, I freely translate the term ‘parental discretion’ to mean: ‘parents are advised not to watch this stuff coz it’s got a bunch of blood and gore which we know you can’t handle watching, but your kid can’….

So I tell my mom this and she agrees, and we burst out laughing….

Whaddya think? Fun, eh!

Visit to New York

So, I finally visited New York City on the 21st of February, 2009.

Being quite a lazy bum, I actually took the effort to make this video out of the photos I took with my cell phone during my visit, so that I would not have to write much about it.

Those of you who cannot see the video, see it here on You Tube!

The Picasa album of the pics I took with the cell phone is also embedded below…this one has no music…and no captions either….

And for the others, the video is embedded below just for you!!

Hope y’all enjoy the trip as much as I did!!

Nitty Gritty – Down and Dirty

Well, there are so many things which are a part of life which we all take for granted. Stuff like furniture, bank accounts and so on. Well, when you are kinda starting over in a whole ‘nother country, then you need to know a whole bunch of stuff.

2 days after I landed, my mom and I went down to the Social Security office. In USA, you are no one and nothing if you don’t have a SSN. Well, I filled up the form and waited my turn, only to find out that in all probability my SSN card and the Green Card are both gonna come in the mail by the end of this month.

Hmmm. So that leaves me with a whole bunch of time where I can simply just wait. So, me and my mom decided to make the most of it. Whenever she has the time, she takes me out to Diners – this is where you will get the most authentic ‘American’ food.

It is essential to note at this point that USA, by itself, does not really have its own ‘authentic’ anything. Since it is a country formed by immigrants, most everything here is ‘authentic’ of some other country. And it is mostly bland.

In any case, I enjoyed the pancakes, the waffles, the pasta and the ice cream. The portions are huge. Maple syrup tastes like honey. The vegetables and the water here don’t taste the same as back home. And chai is horrible – whether you make it with milk or powder or whatever it may be. Somehow, it just doesn’t taste the same.

So all those of you who think that USA is better – think again – coz if your stomach is the motivating factor, then your stomach is going to need to adjust a whole lot. Flavor is flavor, and no amount of $$$s can change that!

In any case, on the third day of my coming to the USA, I was in a car accident as well.

OK…nothing to worry about – coz no one was injured. My mom was driving and explaining to me the fundas of ‘exits’ and ‘lanes’ when we were passing an exit. Then, suddenly, a car from our left swerves to the right and almost rams into us. So my mom swerves to the right, and we end up going down the exit, following the fella in the other car. Mom honked away to glory and followed him and so he turned into another lane and stopped.

Actually, I was looking around to see if 3-4 cop cars burst in on us from all sides with all horns blazing and what not, but nothing of that sort happened.

So, we called 911 and waited for at least 2 hours till a nice handsome looking cop comes and does what he is supposed to do. The other guy gets a ticket and we get the address of the police station from where we can order for a copy of the FIR.

Meanwhile mom and the fellow in the other car had ended up exchanging what is considered to be the most vital bit of information in the USA when motor car accidents happen – Car Insurance Details.

So here I am, in the USA, waiting for the documentation to happen and already 1 accident down (as a witness, of course!!)…

So, the jet lag is all but gone and me and mom are busy moving furniture things around to get space going for the new furniture we ordered for my room and stuff like that. Am also gearing up to go visit my dad this weekend.

These are the things that will occupy my time and day till I get the go ahead (document and infrastructure-wise) to start my things like before…

Till then, I wait and watch and write….

Some Pictures

So my new laptop has a web cam and all that…

Here are a few pictures that I took with it….


Figuring It Out

Figured It Out!

Aren’t I Beautiful?


OK! So I am NOT camera shy!

Perks of the Job! Now you know why I love to freelance!

Supposed to be in a Pensive mood!

Ranjan and I

Swati and I

Dil Dhoondta Hai Phir Wahi Fursat Ke Raat Din….

My heart searches for the days when I had all the time in the world…

So busy…so hectic our lives have become so busy. I long for those days when I had all the time in the world to look at the rays of the sun streaming into my room through a slit between the curtains, with the dust motes floating in the rays of light…

The early morning light of the sun shining onto the trees and green leaves. The fresh and cool early morning air. The sounds of the waking birds chirping away. The sounds of the city street waking up. The sweepers cleaning the street. The shopkeepers opening the shops underneath my window. The put-put-put of the occasional rickshaw zooming through the empty street below. The milkman and the newspaper guy zooming on their bicycles. The steaming cup of tea and the crossword puzzle in the Times. The slow waking up of the senses and the mind. The maid washing clothes in the bathroom to the sounds of the radio in the background.

I long for those days when I could just be…words fall short…I cannot describe the effect fully.

Oh! how I miss those days of my life when I had all the time in the world!

It reminds of a poem I studied in school. I quote it here, nostalgically to convey in words some things that perhaps I was unable to.

“Leisure” by W.H. Davies.

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty’s glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

Poem copied from : http://www.blupete.com/Literature/Poetry/Leisure.htm