It has been a very long time that I haven’t posted about the goings on in my life. I suppose, those of you who have me on your FaceBook might know, or maybe not. More than anything else, this blog is a place for me to rant once in a while, and sometimes I think it is a record of my life’s journey, albeit online.
Nevertheless. I think an update is long overdue. 🙂
So. Where to begin? Lets see…
Professional Life – yeah, that looks like the safe and nice way to begin, isn’t it? Well, its going good, ifI have to say so myself. They say any business takes a few years to get off the ground. And as such, it is true. It took me about 4-odd years to get my freelance business off the ground back home. And its been a couple of years since I came here. My real effort in terms of my business started a few months ago, and its been paying off quite well, thank you very much. The graph can only go upwards now, because there’s no downwards in this journey. Slow and steady. But yes, its getting there.
Personal Life – well, this is indeed a hit and miss scenario. (When was it any other way, huh?)
Well, I am trying to figure many things out. Some answers have come through to me via the Universe, and some, well, not yet. Nevertheless, Existence has been kind enough with me. And for that I am grateful.
There was a weird time in the past few months when all and sundry were after my life to get married. Of course, I resisted. I even checked out Shaadi dot com, but I didn’t make an account. The way I see it, me and marriage are not a marriage made in heaven! LOL
Trust me, you had to be there – random strangers advising me to get married! The voice in my head is sometimes so very snarky and makes me laugh so much!
Just had a couple of interesting realizations a few days back. They aren’t easy. In fact, they’ve given me a bit of a depressed feeling. But here it is: I have problems with trust where making new friends is concerned, I have met and lost the one guy who in all probability was my soul mate and therefore have no hope of ever finding another soul mate again, and there are some other things that I can’t have which money can’t buy.
Yeah, I know, normally, I take these things with a smile on my face and live through the day. But today, I am feeling a bit down. Knowing my proclivities, I am damn sure, I will bounce back by the time this weekend’s done.
I know that there is a differing thought process between my head and heart – and my head is pretty much in a happy place, my heart, well, that isn’t. And so it will pass. Just like everything else in life.
Writing – yes – this is a completely different area of my life. Probably an area that supersedes it all. I mean, personal sh*t and professional stuff aside, writing is a totally different area of my life. These things usually don’t have to touch it. Although in the past I have allowed it to. But not so anymore.
Building up all kinds of psychological and psychic defenses for each area of your life, after separating them in the first place takes a lot of effort. It is a lot of hard work. But I find that I have achieved it to some major degree.
Anyhow, I am writing again. Can you believe it? After a lull of over 5 or 6 years, I wrote a new short story a few months ago. And I could glimpse the same overwhelming feeling all over again. It is as if I am afraid to let myself go deep into that space.
I guess being practical for so long has rubbed off on me. So it has to happen that I need to build the protective walls around this area of my life – so that I can then freely let go. It is important that I have to do this. And I think this is a work in progress – something that’ll happen as I write along.
I have also realized something interesting: just like I read more than one book at a time (sometimes I am concurrently reading 3 books at a time), I need to write more than one book at a time. Really nuts! My brain apparently works on only two settings: On Steroids, or On A Break. There seems to be no middle ground or middle way for it. Ah well, I dealt with it and live with it.
So, I’ve started writing: 2 books. One is my fiction book, and one is my Tarot book. I know, both have been long overdue. And professionally, I am editing this manuscript for this writer who has written this brilliant novel. So there you have it – 3 books. And everything falls into place, right?
Reading – And am also reading 2 different book series too. One is the Game of Thrones series, and the other series had the first book called ‘Feed‘. I’ve finished the first book of both the series, and now on the second book for GOT and have downloaded the sample of Feed 2 in my iBooks to start in a bit. Plus, I read this book called ‘Winter Sea‘ in between, which I believe was a very well written book – something that’s quite rare these days. The author has woven the story so well, that the book could serve as a primer for writers like me who struggle with these things sometimes. Only sometimes. The struggle, I mean… 🙂
Tech Stuff – Yes, this is a also a very important part of my life. I am exploring Mac OS X Lion which to me is great so far. Love my iPad as well. Am always exploring GTD workflows. And I think I’ve found my groove with these things. And things are progressing fairly well, I think. Time management and discipline are the key – trust me.
TV – oh yes! After spending many years without a TV and having then stumbled upon American Television, I find myself scheduling a few series into my calendar. I use this site called Next-Episode dot net to add series to my watch list, and then export every month’s calendar into my iCal so I get these reminders. Plus I have the TV Forecast widget on my dashboard, and the TV Forecast iPad app – so I get reminded no matter what I am doing, or where I might be.
Some interesting series I am watching these days include Suits, Necessary Roughness, White Collar and Alphas. Besides, I have also started Netflix and we even bought this new HD TV to go with it (its got a Netflix app and everything) – so I end up watching movies and old TV series on streaming. Its awesome. Among the ones I watched recently, Battlestar Galactica sure caught my eye! I mean, this series has got to be one of the best I’ve seen so far! Trust me. It weaves a good plot line and is full of these amazing characters – it just takes a hold. If ever there was a series that could singlehandedly become a competition to StarGate for me, then BSG is it. I know you all will call me a “Shol’va” (Goa’uld / Jaffa word for Traitor) for this, but hey, a girl likes what a girl likes.
After all, “All of this has happened before, and will happen again,” right?
So, what else is left now? If anything is, just drop me a line. I am in a good sharing mood right about now. LOL.